At the time when we didn’t know what love was, we met. I wasn’t even searching for anyone. I was comfortable in my skin, and there was no loneliness or any feeling of discomfort. I was enough in myself. And as they say, when you are looking for anything, you get the best. So he sent you- A girl of hope and dreams, a girl who likes grey. I didn’t know then that it was going to be the day I’ll never forget. This is so weird about the time, we never know what we are living will be missed.
I regret every minute wasted when you were in front of me and I didn’t talk to you. I regret those goodbyes and goodnights. I wish if I had never said them if we could have just kept talking endlessly. God knows how much I hate goodbyes now. God knows how much I hate rains now. God knows how much I cared.
Every time I get sad happy or sad now, I miss you. I miss you every time I sit to write. I know you are not going to read anything and this breaks my heart. You never loved reading, and I used to make you read everything. You are not here, and I don’t know why I am writing this. This is only getting worse. The nights are getting longer. The days pass somehow. I keep waiting for the springs and they never come. Looking back I realize my mistakes. But then, it is also right that you never understood.
When I listen to the tapes… I want to see her in school tomorrow. I want to eat Mike and Ike’s out of the box with her at the crestmont. I want to dance with her again, and kiss her… when I should have kissed her. But I can’t.
When you stop for a moment, truly let go of your ego, and ultimately get out of the way of yourself… most tend to find the things they don’t want to admit they are protecting are actually selfish and should be let go.
It’s those things that you don’t want to accept responsibility for that oftentimes the things holding you back from being who you are.
No matter how old you are, birthdays are always fun. But the value of birthdays tends to change the older you are. Either way, being around friends, family and the ones you love are what make it a great day and celebrating life is something special in itself. So, kick your shoes off and enjoy, my friends!
Life isn’t made for perfect people. It’s made for those who know how to turn an impossible situation into something beautiful. It’s made for fighters. Dreamers. Lovers. And people who won’t give up even when life feels impossible.