To my children: It pains me to know you’re hurting farther than my arms can reach, that I am unable to protect you with the entire span of the Pacific between us, that no number of emails or texts or FaceTime minutes can bandage the bruises she hammers into your skin.
There are days I think of you until the expression on my face is a postcard she will not let you read: I wish you were here, I wish you were here, I wish you were here.
I keep three clocks set to your timezone as reminders that my 2ams are your almost midays, that while the moon wanes in the sky you are under the sun someplace else feeding breadcrumbs to birds in a park wishing for wings of your own and I imagine that for a fraction of a moment, you’re not so afraid. Fly home to me.
Where the hands that hold you will tremble with passion not violence, where you will not be a possession but the universe I inhabit. Fly home to me.
Our prime purpose in this life is to help others. And if you can’t help them, at least don’t hurt them.
Better an “Whoops” than a “What if”..
A buddy noted I had been posting my content in a way that was making it hard to see the context of the conversation I was trying to communicate…. sorry about that. Things should be better from now on.
I don’t wanna fight no more
I only wanna get to shore
Baby don’t slam the door tonight
We ran another off the tracks
That’s time we can’t get back
We can save tomorrow if we try
Oh oh oh oh until we make this right
Oh oh oh oh I won’t say good nightI just wanna make you laugh
I just wanna see that smile
Babe we’re only here, oh for a little while
I just wanna hold you till we fall asleep
I want love, I want us, I want you, I want me, I want peace
Everybody needs a place, somewhere that’s warm and safe
For shelter from this crazy world we’re in
But tonight I let the rain inside, I took away your place to hide
I’m sorry that I made you cry again
Oh oh oh oh we can make this right
Oh oh oh oh kiss me good night
Sometimes everything hits you all at once. You loose a relationship, change jobs, old friends go and new friends come. It’s up one day and down the next. You have it all together on Monday and by Thursday you don’t have a clue. Life is one big wave and all we can do is flow, grow and adapt.
I’ve wiped tears off faces that have caused mine. I have picked up people who have tried to knock me down. I’ve done favors for people that can do nothing for me. I’ve been there for people that have not been there for me.
Crazy? Maybe… but I will not loose myself in the hatred of others; I continue to be me because I am who I am and it is my nature.
Sometimes people pretend you’re a bad person so they don’t feel guilty about the things they did to you.